November 21-
Big 5, $ store, Panda Express, Thanksgiving shopping for Ladies Group Gobble dinner. 1 win, 1 loss, 1 tie then John won final game in chess and I went to sleep early. Draining area, left leg:
left ankle:
November 22 1:40am---up for the day---I was awoken from a dream that a young kid not identifying himself came to my area looking for me with a young teen girl wanting to know what happened on YHF13' --- I explained if they had their parents / guardian with written permission and as well a political publicist counsel present and my health / blood labs / imaging could handle it, I would be unable because of the push on certain ones that are growing up without having certain docs set upfront like a disclosure legal doc- I refuse to be set up and I totally get the emotions of this kid in the dream yet I live in real world time and seen how appalling the treatment has been thus far being a truth seeker. You see there are some folks out there who are not alive today, so I need a trusted person that has authority to do the difficult right thing. Speaking clever to me and solid word-smithing, you can avoid those folks to come my way. I need integrity folks. That is a fact.
all the FB comments were removed on FJS's YHFR FB page for this post:
so archiving post here but should be somewhere on here the original content. FB would have the only control to remove all your comments, folks. We did not.
organizing medical-- I am being seen soon and doing labs soon...they requested a formal screening and review of my current medical.
I got this email yesterday: Seems like a neat tool ...
So, I sent a message asking that I get their protocol ...that the first appt is a consultation ...and the next is the scan ....and the scan is not free to the world but was for us based on our VIP attendance at an Expo ...but my inquiry is the scan is free but is there a follow up visit after that will cost? Right, good question ... let you know when I know.
I think because I am the eyewitness --- wait wait wait --- to clarify for folks that like to claim I am not an eyewitness...I am clarifying---I saw fire June 30, 2013, firefighters, fire vehicles and air vehicles and I took photos and videos and I was WITH the Granite Mountain Hotshots on the Weavers on the two track road so does that make it an eyewitness to that day ??? Just wondering how long you all are gonna deny me that moment that I almost died but 19 did... as I hear you all get puffy when you even hear my name as like you wish we did not exist ???? Anyways, I am not a tagged co-author nor have I been on any presentations since 2019 in Washington DC- remember:
and it would be safe to say since Lance Honda (RiP) passed on that I am the new tagged name to the paper ???
I got a message from Harry, and I played it for his sweetie, and she said there is NO WAY you could know that was a song I sang to him...
Caught up with Jake B. We watched a Christian movie as we ate shrimp. Time to go play chess.
-November 23
getting more greys:
I was at Toni's from 2:30pm to 5:30pm ----thank you Toni- I brought whiskey pie and light
flaky rolls and Irish butter.
also locals: Jake (JW), Jim. Martie, Lou, Wayne, Teresa
Kas, Margaret, Ron, Glynda went...
Lauren will be blogging for me until the end of the year so I can focus to medical areas.
November 24:
November 25- saw RR.
left side so swollen:
it is growing in the oddest color mixed with dark and light greys:
(seb)3:58pm-22m33s) Public at Large: I last did presentation stuff in 2019- I have refrained from such in 2020 through current year and 2024. I am unwell and will not place my name to any legal documents or presentations--- in 2023 AHFE was alerted of such --- we can safely assume the main author is just keeping two names relevant in current times. ??? I only need to be relevant in getting well and getting documents out.
Anyone who is able to donate to my medical bills as I have to reach a hefty one in 2023. I need to meet a large deductible before insurance kicks in.
Every year, I end up paying loads out financially for medical ... any little bit helps ... my snail mail is PO BOX 572 Congress Arizona 85332. I appreciate it. I know my family and friends and some naysayers read the journal- I am not trying to get your funds. I would even be willing to make payments back if needed.
painful bilateral swollen ear infection:
right ear:
left ear:
November 26:
the pain sucks. resting. painful and swollen.
right ear:
left ear:
November 27: awoke at 2:22 but got out of bed at 4:44am. right ear:
left ear:
throat:
November 28 awoke at 4am
Someone asked how they can send an online payment towards the medical instead of snail mail - ZELLE email:
Went to urgent care- thanks to FJS zelle payment to attend a bilateral ear infection- ,very painful:
November 29
November 30
above image- reality, below image- with blur to image when taking pic:
December 1
I cancelled Johnny G because I chopped over ten inches the past few months. Letting it grow out phase.
December 2
I was walking in my kitchen and God placed it on my heart to go on WMDFB and I did and I saw some message but oddly enough I do not call DCJ by his formal name and his family calls him BUMPA so I messaged the person to reach FJS for new #. Fred conferenced called. I went in person and just agreed to make a new FB one and state the others are inactive. All done in less than 24 hours. Yet, meanwhile KL purged her clothes and this is one of the Moo Moos I got from her---it is huge and very roomy...kinda camping in it ;) anyways, thank you KL. See you on the 9th.
December 3
still pain and been antiobiotics since 11-28-23.
strange that the cops want our help--how about them finally helping us on YHF13' and what actions they did that week 6-30-13 through 7-7-13. Hmmm...and 8-26-22 DONNA GORDON vs YCSO...her story being told in truth on paperwork and with the Mass Media...
December 4
December 5
Lauren and John alerted folks I may not attend AWIMA in 2024. I have been THAT taxed and weak. Not even for the refresher which I have always done. I will still go to my Johnny G appt. ;) though. "God-willing." That is a few months from now. Seems like it is coming up quick.
December 6 3:50am: I awoke from a YHF13 nightmare that showed me the background to the documents I own and why everything happened to me after the fire. I wish I did not have THAT dream/nightmare.
this was good find: 43 matches-- might have our guy from that photo...
(shopping stinks- who likes to shop- not me)
walked backyard. Christmas lights are up. Got carrot cake, those Thanksgiving rolls and Danish butter for ladies group. Welcome Back party it is...coming up.
December 7-
let's take a look to see what others peaked at this week on the blog:
left ear:
right ear:
Strangers; Robert, Anita, "Ditto" Octavia and VV stopped by between 2 something to 5pm unexpected-their spontaneous moment yet they ended up in my living room via VV ???--- I just hope that talk God protects all from it...sensitive topic.
December 8
December 9
RR, Ladies Group with Karen joining:
Laurel (below) got flowers for Margaret:
December 10 RR stopped by- DEPLETED feeling I am...RR:
left ear:
Happy 80th Bday Sonny and since I am here----HB to DSTEP too...
December 11- walking more outdoors is making my hair lighter:
heading to Toni's to workout with her and Margaret...
ears are getting there---still a fever and still feel inflammed:
left:
right:
mailed today to Dan J.:
December 12 Ladies Group Workout with Toni 10am to 1pm - Margaret and Karen.
December 13 - still feeling unwell--- JC reached out to AHFE and let them know I am not in any presentations in 2023/2024; re-evaluate in 2025--- official P-Evaluation -9am today. Walmart; got containers to make trail mix for Toni since I ate a lot of hers. Went to the valley today. Congress looks hazy:
left leg/hip---a lot of draining...painful too:
K.J., thank you for sharing --- you are a true person and always showing we are a child of God:
sorry, it cut off in the middle---
let me take some night pics:
right ear:
left ear:
December 14 this month is going quick.
December 15 LIFEGUARD IMAGING - met Jeff Blair- then headed to blood labs:
December 16
3 years ago today I was so unwell and I feel about the same:
leaking all over my body:
3 years ago today, the Trader Joe flowers:
feel so yuk!
thank you for the call SH- good catching up with you:
RR, no ladies group, FJS late afternoon...
December 17: RR, dealt with a conference call that seeked the YHF13' "end results"---when this is complex and layered...walked with hubby and dog.
It is not my role to place out and feed your "cliff hanging" hunger ...
and I am not into wrapping this up to feed your need(s) ...
I am doing this with grace and doing the difficult right thing all with bad health and knowing as people told me their testimonies ---
they were fixated on the 19 as they shared their stories ... yet it never clicked with them that I was WITH those men on the Weavers that fateful day so I have had to hear how I almost died is how I thought ...
and people want me to name/express the big stories and they label me "holding back" yet I am in this with no agenda for fillum or books but I do want changes...
so some have to stay with specific folks not for the Public at Large until it is time - God's time not mine...
and this is not a series like you see some authors doing...this is real time heavy stuff.
People who perceive it like on the outside looking in ---that this has been some kind of series and some know the end result and we are piecing it out and feeding a little at a time ... sad....you are...
I will not jeapordize all the gathering of data and research just because some poorly observant people want to PERCEIVE it such way. The ones saying such, what have you done in the research?
Besides gossip.
Fred likes to gather people to his bandwagon that I am holding back and he likes to use Gary L. Olson as the main topic and say Gary says this and he agrees but I would NEVER give him crucial stuff because I already gave him what he sued to the 9th Circuit and other stuff, and it laid untouched...it was a red flag to me as who is he in all this...I mean you sued to the 9th circuit and paid gobs of funds and someone he knows has the specific software so ???? How come 2 years is about to be reached and you never did anything with it. ??? Good questions. Left scratching my head.
Then I hear from his pal, why even go down the path of discoveries if I am unwilling to share--- I am appalled that was asked but I have every right to delve and dig as to why I almost died and I have every right to get to the BIGGER truths beyond the fire I almost died on....by the way, I have shared MORE than any human being pertaining to the fire I almost died on...just because I do not feed you as you desire --- not my role... but I can say with confidence there are MANY who should and can.
Look at InvestigativeMEDIA and all that I shared on there as it happened...from day one I have been sharing but Fred's pal takes it as if I am selfish and looking for redemption and sorry dude-
I am looking for specific changes- but I also know how well spread the folks are in the industry... it is a very different type of research that had to be done.
Remember, to this day not one person from that investigation or those initial first hand firefighters who told their stories to me or gave me materials--- they are to this day even clueless that some decisions that were made almost killed me June 30, 2013, and that at times floors me.
Look at the folks pressing me to speak more--- how about you all do that to the first hand folks not the eyewitness who was almost killed by others poor decisions...I have taken the biggest hits in the aftermath for speaking and sharing documented truths. That is sad. Even got brutally assaulted.
Did any of you?
When is it gonna end ML says to Fred? When those who know- speak up. Reconstituing evidence, ML? Fred has had some crucial stuff for HOW LONG now--- talk to him...leave me be. You were not invited into my space to speak/ask on heavy topics when I am dealing with health stuff...so I walk away and do not engage, and you all conclude I was pissed? Come on. I am not wasting energy on ignorance.
You were wrong to perceive I am in this to have personal redemption or need apologies from specific areas...I am in this for change to take place.
I am sorry you get frustrated ... give it to God ... I am not protecting anyone but I am trying to get changes to happen. Stop placing me as if I am in trauma mode looking for apologies because I am not.
I have important areas with people I trust will carry it forward. I am not the only one who seen it or knows it. I take the majority of the blow back if it went out a certain way because I am the only one who owns it outside the area I got it from and it has been made clear of that.
By the way I did not get pissed--- when I see my chest and voice increase, I walk away. You both do not see the bigger package and that is sad. You said- Many lives will be affected by TRUTH, ML...you are right on that. However, it is the first hand folks role...and feverishly praying for just that.
Also, Brian M., you were being shared incomplete pieces the other day on Curtis H. when speaking with Fred and I was conferenced in--- I know Fred claimed to you it is a gift ... it is "reality" when one lives under the bodily atonement and has a pure deep relationship with Jesus as I led/lead my life.
God opens doors at its proper time. I honor that unique trait He shows me. I am genuine and I am truth. Dr TJ McCrossman found it through reading Greek New testament and later on teamed up with Dr. Charles Price---
Let me share something I have studied when I got ill--- Satan originated sickness --- Jesus Christ is my Great Physician and people say then why are you ill, Joy??? ... God is used to healing, Christ died to atone for our sicknesses as well as our sins, I believe illness is not of God's will or ways, the Holy Spirit who raised Jesus from the dead so every day I focus to my faith in which will help my heath not if so and so has spoke up on the YHF13'---
Why am I ill still? Matthew 9:12. "They that be whole need not a physician, but they that are sick"
So to explain-- it is not a gift but it is my pure faith ... the others judge it as a gift for their own thinking and how they have to process it...but I am God's and his alone...so be careful when making judgement/perceptions how one does it because God is watching...
James 1:7 is why I stay firm in the Lord...I ask in accordance to His will not ML or others...
I pray like this "Concerning the works that God made me then I want to reveal faith not fatalism...may my faith grow stronger in the Word then in man...I ask God to show me being saved how I can atone with Him"
--- I take responsibility in my relationship with Jesus...I do the work... I am obese right now with doing walks and calesthenics and I allow it to confuse me at times versus listening to why God would want me to see this in my life--- what do I need to do more or differently ... and I know I have to work on cussing ... it slips at least once a week when someone is ignorant or says things like they ever walked in my shoes and feel they can dictate what I need to do.
Some of them: unethical
Me: ethical---I stand out and standing up doing the difficult right thing and I own my flaws.
Even with their harm and hurts done my way--- some done with "abuse of power" ...
...I'm not wasting time stacking evidence of their draining efforts as they do as they watch me and my every word and action to find something to get on me...
But I am making sure the information gets to the right areas to do my best that change happens.
I am seen differently...
Because I am
And I give data to lead to conclusions better then them, so you have tangibles to see and believe in
My heart is good
They project...
My goodness projects them to profile me in a different unfavorable way
why? in it, I maintain self-control during their projection and aggressive manners.
The ones who say I am crazy
Ask them how and why
I was profiled to appear that way for what agenda?
But I have and do give harsh truths.
I am passionate for documented truth.
The tongue is the tool.
The truth is intense.
I am reality and in reality as they feed you lies and misinformation and omissions just note I am truth and I will not place stuff out there just to make you feel and perceive as they have done...
In closing-- PETER 2:24... I am saying read that...then say "Ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you" ...may the Holy Ghost be your thoughts, words, and deeds...praise, be grateful, and allow happiness in. Walk away from judgers ... walk away from people who expect ... walk away from the naysayers.
Some of you talking on my name --- take all those tangibles away --- who is there? I know my answer... God...
December 18 up by 6am today- late start for me but I went to bed later than normal due to walk looking at the town's Christmas lights.
Hey BIG Egos out there--- I do not go to your space and bother with you ---- how about showing me the same respect to me--- I am gonna say this --- if you do not like my blog then do not come back--- that simple... move along. I am not even on social media. You are in my space here. It would be like you coming to my home but it is online... this is my only online place and space...respect or stay out. Why do you feel you gotta try these dumb methods...??? Every action you do on the blog is recorded. I know what is looked at or taken...I have surveillance on my home, vehicles and even here online.
also...
This does not lay on me either, ML...there are many folks that know ...this is not a Kennedy concern either...this is not square one either. You are one of many who feel they call me out --- and you are more than likely ignorant how layered this really is... who said I was an investigator? I am a better one than the ones assigned though. Also, those ping pongs that rained on ??? was a funny input and takeaway. Yet, not in this for sorries, dude. Stop. Stop. Take it to God...
December 19- I went to D-appt. - it was at 8:30am but did not get in until 9:21am...then to Walmart then won in chess and even lost...walked...
Luv ya gurlz: these two have a baby brother named CLINT EASTWOOD:
this is our communities CLINT EASTWOOD :) just born in 2023:
December 20-this was on my YouTube timeline ??? I sent it to Anita/Robert/Octavia in text:
I would find that quite interesting if I combined my actual documents to what is being shown in that field of supernatural...after all the years of abuse shown my way on topic of the lies and omissions projecting me as one...dumb a%%es...I have atonement and not anything evil as it was projected and labelled my way...God will show them in His time and ways...It would be interesting if that area (supernatural) placed it out public vs. the media who some were shown the evidence and never did a thing...would be interesting...
Ladies Group NT workout
December 21
Great night with Kim, Randi, Bonnie, Naomi, Maddison- Reed at Church Game night- BINGO.
Bingo wins:
BW, if you wondered why I was uncertain about your impulsive "likes" on FJS's FB YHFR page back in 2021- just remember you left these kind of posts on folks who caused me unnecessary moments...see: yet I always treated you well...except when odd misperc
December 22 --
winning week at "Chess"
Pastor Bob and family---I babysat his kids from the 80's when I was a teen--
thank you for the calendar Pastor Bob and family: ... already filled it all out :)
December 23-
RR, ladies group I was not gonna attend --- Karen got me and we stayed until almost 2:30pm...We are going to handle some stuff in 2024 as a group...thank you ladies...the itinerary is already set--- My focus is ladies group events until April 2024- unavailable for fire so I cancelled my Spring 2024 courses and conferences.
This was reported to HOUSEKEEPER.com (photo below) as a fraudulent account...I do not have any profiles out in cyber world or in person seeking work or job opportunities. I was at one point only looking for remote type work with health insurance. My seizures and other health stuff kept being a concern. Please contact me if you ver see my name tied to seeking anything -
right side of bottom lip hurts with this swollen owie:
December 24- RR,
hubby forgot to leave out lunch funds and RR gave me Holiday scratch off and I won my lunch funds :)--- I told hubby God had my back and he was like oh ok...then the ticket happened:
thank you, Dude Fire Investigator- Safety Hank - for your Wildfire boots ... I wore your Nomex at the Academy in prior years ... I will not be at the 2024 Wildfire Academy due to health. Thank you, Dr Ted Putnam- between you and Safety Hank, I was able to be equipped for training in the fire industry so thank you for all the sharing---thank you to FJS as well..thank you for meeting Scottie Briggs 12-15-23 and thank you SB for the transport of the boots to my home 12-24-23 for our Placerita ghost town adventure with Jackson. I will say, Tom Harbour's boots are about as old as these, and Tom's were in better condition ;)
Scottie Briggs and Jackson appx 10:45-11am until 6-6:15pm: Red Ryder and Cloud Time Lapse footage off Date Creek Rd
, Ranch House Rest. - thank you, Amber. Glynda said "Congrats" thinking I was pregnant--- and no, I did not swallow a watermelon, but it does look like I swallowed a few- I had a terrible incident happen July 2022 and still even with doing calisthenics have yet to recover and my labs show my liver is suffering.
Scottie Briggs on left:
Went to the land--- what happened to the workers? Looks the same since Summer 2023. ??? Anyways, say these orb looking things --- I coughed it up to placement of the sun but even the game trail caught them in image above.
This was a mystery on the land:
Then we were headed to Prescott to see the Holiday lights then we all wanted to go to the Placerita Ghost Town instead. However, Happy Anniversary to a couple who are celebrating by the court house (JWA-TA)...
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